HELLO READERS, WHOEVER YOU ARE,
I THINK I HAVE OFFICIALLY MIGRATED TO MY TUMBLR BLOG,


ITS JUST EASIER FOR ME TO EXPRESS MY THOUGHTS THERE.
SO TILL I GET SICK OF TUMBLR, GO TO THE TUMBLR ONE INSTEAD, THANKS =)


LOVE, AIS.

I love this song. So so much =)
Her voice is nice and soothing.

Zee Avi- Bitter heart

Sun rays come down as seen when they hit the ground,
Children spinning around till they fall down down down.
I wait for you: it's been two hours now,
You're still somewhere in town,
Your dinners getting cold.
I rest my case you are always this late,
And you know how much I hate waiting around 'round 'round,
Bitter heart, bitter heart tries to keep it all inside,
Bitter heart, bitter heart shadows will help you try to hide,
Bitter heart, my bitter heart is gettin' just a little fragile,
Bitter heart, bitter heart of mine.
And then you come and tell me the same reason as you did yesterday,
So tell me whats her name.
Doo doo da dum, doo doo da dum, doo doo doo doo doo doo da da dum dum, da da da da dum, da da da da dum, da da da da dum.
Bitter heart, bitter heart tries to keep it all inside
Bitter heart, bitter heart shadows will help you try to hide,
Bitter heart, my bitter heart is just getting a little fragile,
Bitter heart, bitter heart of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine, of mine.

When someone breaks your heart, it teaches you that loving someone does not always mean that the person will love you back.

Nice quote right? I think it'll mean a lot to everyone at least once.

Everyone's asleep.
Malam raya has never been meriah in my house, we only start on pagi raya!

LOL.

YEAYYYYYY can wear baju raya! I'm so happy that i have 3 kebayas this year.
No more plain, boring, shapeless kurungs.
HEHEH.
You wont understand what i mean if i never told you why.

Gosh, i hope i can fit into my purple kebaya songket top.
The male tailor (my brother's friend) made it super fitting.
What was he thinking? I didnt ask for a corset top.
Fats dont shrink overnight, you know.

Anyway,
HAPPY MALAM RAYA!

If i'm in a free mood tomorrow, i might update.
BYE!

There’s a little truth behind every ‘just kidding,’ a little curiosity behind every ‘just wondering,’ a little knowledge behind every ‘I don’t know,’ a little emotion behind every ‘I don’t care,’ and a little kick of lie behind the distant eyes of someone saying ‘I don’t love you.

I'm still hyped from last night. I didnt even get at least 5 hours of sleep. But I AM WIDE AWAKE.

Cos i can feel the raya mood already in full swing! So much so i woke up at 830.

On usual days, at 830, i'm dead in bed.

I have created a new blog, which is mainly full of photos.

I will STILL blog proper here.

But, daily, over

here ====>     http://aaishahh.tumblr.com/

Everything is subject to your own interpretation, alright?

=)

I'm not tellin'.

I love my new heels.

Even though it somehow gives off this badgirl vibe, i think.

I hope it doesnt kill me.
=)

As you can see. I am BLOGGING, YES.

Thats because somethings significant today happened, so i decided to share it!

Today we had our first anatomy hall.

Meaning, cadavers.

The smell of formalin made my stomach turn when we first went in. Almost everyone was so excited to wear THE lab coat.
LOL.
Of course i dont see any excitement in that, hating lab like forever for nearly a whole year and of course the hate would be associated to that white coat.

Then when we went into grps, they had stations where they had organs like hearts and lungs laid out. And on the other station, a complete cadaver body in a body pack.

Everybody got to touch the organs of course, and i was most in awe when i held the heart in my two hands.

It wasnt beating of course, but being able to hold a real human heart in my hand, its nothing short of AMAZING.

The human lung is kinda squishy, nice to touch. Sounds kinda disrespectful, i know,

Sorry.

My eyes kept stinging like mad due to the fumes of the formalin i think, ESPECIALLY when the teacher opened up the stomach part to show the intestines and everything under. My eyes burned and welled up in pain.
I think it was bad because due to no protection from contact lenses or spectacles, my naked eye was really exposed. Perhaps i should wear a no degree specs next week to appear
1. smart
2. protect my eyes lol.

Our grp's cadaver was a female, the only female i guess.
Its something different, of course since most cadavers are males.
Can see the mammary glands of the female body. It is actually kinda hard. the female had strong biceps so maybe she was a really strong woman. For some reason pictures of samsui women flashed in my head when i saw her.

I think i touched anything that i could. The intestines, the eye, the tongue (eww!) and so many i also dunno where i touch already la. Oh the voice box! And those parts on the face down to the heart there too. The cut up cadaver (not the full body one) still had the eyebrow la! I accidentally touched it summore!
I can still remember the images.
Thank god i am fasting. Because the surreal experience itself lets your thoughts on meat run wild and kinda induces vomiting.
My chinese friends couldnt finish their lunch after that, of course.
For all i know, some people may have turned vegetarian for a few weeks.

I think i can go on and on and on and on.
 But you would never understand.
But like what the profs say, this is something u cant describe, but have to see and touch it for yourself to fully understand how it is like.

And today for nursing lab!
LAB is super fun every single week. it is the last lesson of the school week and it never fails to cheer me up every single week.
Today we learnt how to take vital signs, of which very important, is manual BP taking, using the spygmomanometer..
It is actually quite painful on the ears to use the stethoscope for too long eh!
But its amazing to be able to hear the steady, strong heartbeat and also respiratory sounds of yourself, or your friends.
I am still very much a noob at taking BP of course, but once u get it, its really fun. i cant wait to try the portable one that army medics use, the one with the small dial.

Its already week 5, how time flies.
But being in week 5 itself, and wanting more out of this course, i am so glad i chose this pathway.
I am even more convinced now than ever that i was indeed a lost black sheep last year. And meant to be here.
Alhamdulliah.

I like how nursing, is both a science and an art.
We learn science, we also have spiritual learning on how to be a professional nurse and such.
It really is very inspiring whenever we have these "spiritual" tutorials.
the teachers would relate to us stories from the past, real life stories and encouraging us to be the nurse with a heart. With compassion. With hope for the patients. With perseverence.

Of course it would maybe hell be lot more different next time. But it truly is a potentially VERY humanizing job.

Wasnt in the best of moods the past few days, but i somehow feel contented today. :)

Comex started today. and i need to get a printer. My IT show-going buddy, khai, is no longer here.
Sigh.

I have found a new place to muse. This is where i'll be when i dont feel like blogging properly.
;)

I am currently madly in love with john mayer's songs.

My current faves are slow dancing in a burning room, and split screen sadness.
The former is a heart-wrenching song or if thought another way, a very sexy slow song to dance to.
Its so sad, i can actually feel the sadness of when he sung it.
Maybe the song is an autobiography of his.
I feel super duper mellow whenever i listen to the song.

I want a boyfriend who can is willing to sing for me.
So that i can melt everyday when he sings to me.
AWWWWWWWW.
It doesnt matter if he sings bad,
i'll still melt anyway!

Fasting month is indeed a month of cubaan. I'm embedded in a vicious cycle of altered state of sleep. Affecting me alot. I always feel like there's a constant lack of sleep.
After sahur, 10 mins nap, subuh, sleep, school, go home, buka, solat terawih, sleep, then back to sahur.
I'll try to read my notes and revise after terawih but usually i succumb to the sleep monster in the end.

This is what happens when trying to fast and adapt to a new sch environment at the same time.
Mentally stressed.
Thank god for the "honeymoon" period for year ones. And great lectures and tutorials and modules.
The toll on me is not bad, at all.

Indeed, this shall be the only month i'm skipping my morning lectures. Thank god for webcasts.

Yup, so what else do you want to know?
Many things have or have not been happening, i'm not sure where to start.
so i shall not, since well, by this time, i sure feel as sleepy as a pig already.

If you really want to know how i've been or am, you'll know how to reach me.
Till... whenever.
=)

My mum gave me a Little Miss Sunshine handphone keychain today.
Out of the blue.
And thats exactly what i am, or what i'm trying to be.
How apt.
I want to be the little miss sunshine nurse for all my future patients!
So can you imagine how happy and surprised i was to get it?
she said cos she bought a tikam ball for my niece and it had the keychain in it.
How cute.

Anyway right.
I went to the dermatology clinic today.
And right, i think, EVERYTIME i go to the derm clinic, i always meet someone or someones i havent seen for a few years, there.
The first time, i met ayub.
Today, i met this primary school friend of mine, and cikgu osman! (my primary 2 school malay teacher)
Maybe i should go there everyday, maybe i'll meet humans i havent seen for years!

Today i forgot to bring my handphone.
I feel so naked i tell you. Esp cos have lessons the WHOLE DAY.
Lucky shu hua lent me her watch! So at least i have a sense of time.
So i was having a pretty horrible day cos of the schedule today and also i waited so long to meet the doc and waiting for the medicine and cikgu osman kinda made my day when i met him at the n u h pharmacy.
He said i'm all grown up and pretty now.

AWWWWWW!

So nice can?!
For someone who loveeees calling me AH SIAH to irritate me and purposely sweeping my shoes in class when i was in primary two!

Nursing lab today was soooooo fun! We learnt how to move patients in bed and how to use the hoist machine. Of course the test subjects was everyone and we took turns to lie in various ways and positions that patients may lie in and our own friends would move us. HEHEH!

And we also had a session of LEAD THE BLIND, THEN BE THE BLIND.

And i realised, that being blind is such a scary thing. To rely only on the person leading you, not knowing whatever is there in front of you.
It was after that session that i really really treasure my eyesight, a perfect one to boot!

HELLO EYES, I LOVE YOU.

The hoist machine is super cool and fun! Of course i happily volunteered first to be the "patient". It is amazing!
Just now the mentor posed a situation of a patient who needed to be hoisted after sponging.
And at that time she havent teach how to handle, cos she wants to see how we do things.
And of course, yours truly, eager punye pasal, volunteeered to be nurse number 1. And CH volunteered to be nurse 2.
The mentor made the patient act as a very difficult chinese-speaking patient and i gabra man!
But i learnt chinese before! So i managed to converse with him about what we are going to do with him lol.
With a little help from ryan, i managed to say in chinese, we'll take only 5 minutes to move you to the chair for a rest- as the final persuasion.

ME SO PROUD OF MYSELF! 

OK.

Thats it.

I have to learn.
HOKKIEN
CHINESE
MAYBE CANTONESE AND TEOCHEW.
not in detail, but enough to converse with patients.
SO FUN!

OMG i better stop here. I better stop idolising my course. Just that....it feels so right! I really feel like this is what i will enjoy doing, providing care and support to people who are sick...... hmms =)
It sure will hone my sweet-talking skills too i hope!
I want to talk like honey!
ROFL.

Anyway!
Its so late. I need my beauty sleep.
and did i tell you?
Ive been a pig lately. I sleep RIGHT AFTER TERAWIH nowadays.
DUNNO WHY!
This aint helping me.
I have readings to do.
And sleeping too much aint gonna help me lose weight, AT ALL!

You know what! I just realised that nana and me have known each other for more than 10 years after she mentioned it, which means we've been friends for more than half of our lives!
Cool or what.
Now, how many people actually have at least a bestfriend whom they've known for more than half of their lifetime?
HEHEH!

I came across a nice nice quote.

Love is the person you think about during the sad songs.

Another hectic day again today. Iftar was good. Cos food was good, lol.
Should i or should i not go for the jam fest. Huda wants to tag along, too. Ahahaha.
Hmmmms.
Sorry for lack of proper update.
I dont think i want to update you about what i learn in school, no?
Or the eyecandies in school? LOL.
HAHAHAAH.

I survived a back to back day of 8 am to 5 pm.
No breaks.
Really back to back. Lecture, lab, tut, lab.
Hence are my thursdays.

But to able to get fridays off, its all worth it!
Cos it feels as if we worked soooooo hard on thursdays, to get fridays off!
Not ALL fridays of the year are off la, but still!

Cat eyes drove me home today. Its the first time i rode in a car with a friend ah! Cos usually i'm driven by experienced drivers, lol. Never a p plate one.
Ok ah. I got the inspiration, i wanna learn driving!

Anyway,

We learnt bedmaking today. I learnt it before while in st johns a gazillion years ago, so it felt like deja vu.
And of course the ever and ever medical handwash and ppe fitting and infection control stuff.

I LOVE LAB!
Its SUPER exciting!
Because i REALLY feel like im learning something!

Just going for the lab, at the end of it i can really feel the instant gratification of what i went there for, to learn something new, and useful.
I didnt know so many kind of dummies exist. The one in our lab room just now was a stroke patient dummy.
Something new!
And he is called mr mark. 
The dummy's hands were heavy, like those of a real guy's one la! And built to be like one. Oh well thats what a mannequin is supposed to be, isnt it? HAHAHA.
And the dummy was of good built.
Maybe they wanted to build a mannequin resembling a hunk? Hmms.

Good, can make a pretty boy (M2M) music video starring yours truly at lab.

He shall be my makeshift boyfriend LOL.

I realised there is a big stark difference between the two varsities.
Not being a traitor or playing unfair, but really, the life on this new side is definitely more vibrant.
Especially at central foyer, fwahhhhh. Its super happening!
People wonder why i am so involved now than when i was on the other side, seriously, i dont know.
Its...the culture, the environment, the feeling.
Like i feel the need to get involved more. And having peers who are all like that, too, makes it an even more pressingly encouraging issue.

Should i join silat?? Hmmmms.

Oh well, its just a thought.
I honestly do not mean anything bad or whatever, okay.

Tomorrow is start of terawih prayers!
And i shall use half of tomorrow to study since i have no plans =)
I need to get this one right already. I have quiteeeee a number of readings to do!

I'm quite disheartened when i hear of how good friends somehow....dont become good friends anymore.
I've had a fair share of it before, how external factors can somehow change how good the good friend has been.
And by good friends, i'm talking about those you spend a lot of time with, or at least you thought you did.
Its hurtful, of course, but i've mostly learnt how to let go.
Its all about accepting that people come, and people go. Only some, will stay.

And thus why, i've learnt to employ the sieving method.
At certain points in life, at certain crossroads, at certain fucking shitass moments, its the true friends who are there for you. They are those who would drop whatever they are doing, be it doing homework, or chatting to a dear one, or even (havent bathe after a long day) to be there to comfort you.
And i'm glad, that i know i have true friends.
And usually when i feel so fucking shitty, bestie is always always there for me. =)
(haha dont worry bestie im not in  a lousy mood, i feel so thankful after listening to a friend, thats all)
And khai too when she's in singapore. =)
There are others of course, but this two are the ones i can really really guarantee and confirm can count on.
With the sieving method, you learn how to not believe it when friends promise things they can never keep. That they will break. Or turn 180 on you. And know that, they may have reasons why they did what they did.
They are still good friends of course, just that you know they wont be there.
Sieve out, sieve out, sieve out, until you are sure that they have become thick enough to stay back, in that sieve netting and not disappear. Even if years go by.
And true friends help in a way that they help you to sieve out the unhappy stuff out, too.
And the most important thing of all, true friends forgive each other.

To learn to take things with a pinch of salt.
And of course, see it as...a way that everyone has flaws, so...to not begrudge even if they did hurt you.
HAHAHA what is nursing doing to me?
I hope it means i'm maturing.

So to the mysterious person i talked to,
HUGGGGGGGGGS!
I'm sure somehow this will make you into a stronger person.
I dont want to promise you anything in case i break it, but i promise i'll TRY my best to make you feel better if you feel lousy and need someone to talk to okay!

Ok, bye. I'm off to tweet.
Life's too short to dwell on things that puts you down too much.
Try, to make the most out of it, whenever you dont want to feel down.

I had the best tutorial today.
At first it was the weirdest, then it became intriguing, then it became really interesting and lastly, fun.

It was an ethics tutorial.
At first he asked the whole class what are ethics.
No one answered cos we havent really settled in and he didnt seem to like the short answers we gave.
He told us all to get out of the classroom.
We were scared shit, thinking he was psycho. Like seriously.
And then he kept sniggering and tell us to come in one by one and answer his question.
If you were not scared in my situation then i dont know what are you sia.

So when i entered, i was telling him what are my perceptions on ethics and he said,
"I didnt ask you for that. Tell me, what do you see in the class that is not normal?"

At that point of time i confirmed with myself that he was seriously psycho. He didnt make sense.
I said huh? what thing is not normal?, and he shooed me away to sit down at my table, seeming unhappy.

Only when i sat down did i see that he had placed 20 dollars on a table near the classroom door. So that was the "abnormal" thing. To see whether we saw it and what we would do if we saw that money.

So that was the weirdest class introduction i ever had.

Then after that he gave us a scenario and BLAHBLAHBLAHBLAH OH MY I SUDDENLY FEEL SO TIRED OF TELLING THE STORY.

Will tell you when we meet up la.


So to make the long story short, remember the ads on television of how to "make the classroom come alive?"
a role of teachers?

I initially scoffed at the idea, till today.
Cos i finally experienced it. My tutor managed to make the classroom come alive. In minutes, the environment kept changing to hospitals...to hospices...to a castle (Long story ah that one) and the situation felt so real with the role playing and acting that you just feel absorbed. And imagine yourself in that setting.

And his main point at the end of the tutorial is that when we become nurses, at work, the Kantian and utilitarian in us are always at the very fine line, and sways according to situation.
At work, aishah will have to disappear, and the nurse would have to appear. And mind you, they have to be 2 different people. (Like split personality seh)
But no la, its because we have to be guided by a code of ethics. Hence why.
with the many many moral dilemmas faced in this job, and with the scenarios posed by the tutor just now, i cant imagine myself in that situation yet. Its always always always a question of "to do, or not to do?"

Even a simple request from a partially paralysed patient to WALK to the toilet, it would be. "to help, or not to help?" with consideration of whatever possible consequences we have to face.

Just now at one of the scenarios he acted as the staff nurse who was tasked to talk to the "family member" of "someone in palliative care" who wanted the feeding tube to be taken out. Like i told you, it seems so real u can imagine the real situation, right there and then. And right now, if i were to imagine myself in that position, and i cant successfully steer her to the path of not taking out the feeding tube, i'd break down.

It all sounds very abstract, but it boils down to our very own principles and ethics. And there'll be times when things happen against the very essence of our principles and values, but its something we cant control or override.
Is that why one of my nurse friends was so stressed being in this line?
I guess i wont know it till i get to it.

but i reckon, i'll be really needing alot of moral support, and emotional support and whatever kind of support also in the future to come when i really start work.

Ok, i shall go on a boyfriend search soon.


is that why so many of them seem so mature? Because of what they face?
=S

Physio tutorial was quite the disaster though. For some reason, teachers or whatever like to call me up to answer or volunteer me. So yup, he called me up to explain about the neurone thing. I kinda forgot the terms for the neurone thingy and tutorial was no longer the kind where u go to class to discuss answers now.
He'll just point to someone, that person goes to the front, explains to the class a concept he had explained during lecture which he wants us to explain.
Alhamdulillah he was very nice and patient and guided me along the way, though i was super paiseh for appearing super dumb dumb.
Thats it, im befriending physiology book tomorrow.
Thank you prof, i think thats justttttt the way to really push me to prepare for tutorials. =)

What an exciting day. I was so hyped from the class.
NURSING SCHOOL IS FUNFUNFUN!

I DONT UNDERSTAND WHY.


BUT I THINK I GIVE OFF "I AM LOUD" VIBES.


=(

But underneath it all, i really am the opposite, sigh.
I SHY YOU KNOW!

 ( whoever is laughing at this right now, stoppit ah! not funneh!)


A pity, what you see, is not what you get, people.
Maybe i need to change the vibes i'm radiating off.

HOW, AH?

So anyway, GUESS WHO'S BACK?!

My grandmama is back.
You cant believe how gleeful it was to give her a hug and kiss her on the cheek when she came back just now.
Because that was the first time she allowed me, or anyone else for that matter, to do that.
She's the very DONT-TOUCH-ME!! kind of person.
Wonder why i'm different from her though, i like hugs.
Maybe she really finally began to appreciate us all, now that she has experienced her "wonderful grandsons" the past few months.
Hopefully, with the nursing skills i'm going to learn, i'll be able to provide her with the best personal geriatric care when she turns older and more weaker.
=)
See grandmama, you should really appreciate your granddaughters more.

Brother bought 10 young coconuts from malaysia. YEAYYYYYYYYYYYY.
I'm like a young coconut hantu.

Yesterday caught G.I Joe with Hud and Anj.
WAAAAAH the movie is greattt.
Channing tatum is HOTHOTHOTHOTHTOHTOHTOHTOHTOHTHOTHOTHOTHOTHTOH.
And munching on sweet yellow popcorns is YUMMMMYUMMMMYUMMMMM.

Hello hello, where's my singaporean channing tatum?

And he is just the guy to prove that BOTAK can be SEXY!
See, i say before in my fb note, some guys just look sexy with hair, and some, no hair!

Quote of the movie: I AM VERY UNHAPPEHH!- french husband of the female lead.
HAHAHAHAHA.
Till now i find it damn funny. I can imitate it for you every now and then, no problemos.

And also the chinese fighter: HELLO BRUDDER! to the quiet black suit hero of course.

Anj kept saying HELLO BRUDDER everytime either of the guys appear in the scenes, i'm surprised the lone guy sitting in front of us didnt turn around to throw popcorns or give an annoyed face.
Ultimate patience man, that one.

The snake eye fighter? Well he looks blooody hot in his dark and mysterious black decked with fake muscles tight suit. I was waiting for the movie to show his face so that i can swoon at the quiet hero.
(Cos i didnt quite like the other evil and noisy fighter, DUH)
I like guys who can fight okay.
SKALI, they never showed.
So Hud googled immediately after the movie and we all saw the face of the actor.
They said they think its better that snake eyes did not reveal his face.
LOLLOL.

Okay la, i need my beauty sleep.
Its already at an ungodly hour.

xoxo.

I had a super duper long day today. I left house at 630 am, and i reached home at 930 pm.
Tiring!
but what makes me happy, is that i actually feel happy.


I'm tired, but i'm happy.
I look forward to school, i look forward to labs, i look forward to the modules, i look forward to the ccas i'm going to join.
Today really drained me, but i enjoyed everthing about today.
I enjoyed the anatomy lesson because we're going to use cadavers very soon and got to see the anatomy museum!
I enjoyed the lab session, trying on different masks and what gowns la and learnt the SEVEN steps of washing hands, clinical and surgical handwash.
There was the duck beak mask and bird beak mask just now. HAHA we all look so weird!
And being girls, we took forever to do uniform fitting!
I tried at least 6 times just now before deciding. HAHAHAHAHAHA.
I enjoyed the photog club session and whatever future photography workshops i'll get to attend!
Oh boy, if i take very long in the toilet next time, its not because i went to shit okay, its because i'm practising my handwashing!!

HA HA HA.

I'm so very excited. Even though i'm going to drown in the amount of readings i have to do or yet to do, i feel happy and excited.
Because i think i've finally found a purpose to what i'm studying.
I've always wanted to do something medical related, and i am. =)
Sure, the dangers of infection or needle stick injury is very real i know, it freaks me out alot sometimes, but i think its exciting to be in such a dynamic environment.

A friend asked me on fb today, do you miss ntu?

I thought long and hard, and i told him that i realised i didnt.
I DO miss the friends i made there.
I miss the endless amounts of computers available there.
But i do not miss the life there.
For last time, i lived day by day and dreaded everything i learnt there. Ok maybe except for psychology and chinese elective. And be it long or short day, i will complain like mad because i saw no purpose. I wasnt drowning. I drowed even before i tried to swim. And lab was the worst thing that happened to me. I absolutely hated lab last time. I dont understand why we had to grow bacteria or play around with dna.

I guess, research is just not my thing.

I really hope this excitement will last much much longer than just this week because i'll need it. I really really hope, in my heart of hearts, that THIS IS IT!

I'm meeting khai's best poly friends tmr for G.I Joe, tpy, and fork and spoon! YEAYYY!
Khai, they're gonna be my best friends.
We'll have a detailed discussion about you.
HA HA HA.
And all you can do is mope, in perth!
LOLOLOL.

I am going to be one of the more obvious people among the rush hour at boon lay interchange tomorrow.
For i will not be rushing.
I will be zombie-ing my way through the crowds.

The last time i woke up so early just to go to school was back in junior college days.
Oh boy, i need adjusting.
My journey takes me one and a half hours now, no more 10 freaking making people jealous of where my home is minutes!
But i tell myself, its okayyyyyy aishah.
ITS OKAY.
Next time, your morning shift starts at 7!!!!!!
Yeah...do your maths if im posted to some far hospital.
=S

Recently i hate checking my mails because i am LAZY.
So lazy that i realized that i am eligible for bursary when i checked the mail today, and the deadline is in less than a week!
GAHHHHH.
Its going to be a mad rush alright, in my head.
All the slips and whatever docs that i need to vomit out in a few days......OMFG IM SO DEAD.
So if you talk to me and i seem to be in a fluster or not really paying attention to what you say,
i'm sorry. Really sorry.
My mind's a mess.
And i have to collect my blood report in a mad rush because they didnt give it to me when they shoulda 3 months ago, and i need it for lab tmr.

And its hard to print notes in school cos there's obviously shortage of computers.
I have so so so much readings to print omg. I need printer.
So i figured, i'll have to go back ntu more often to print then.
The computers there are like ants!

Sorry, please dont kacau me this week.

I'll be a little, no, very prickly for the time being.
Just when i thought everything was going on smoothly.
Which is, for the studies part. =)

£"%£$&$^*£"^"%^.
Even my horoscope of the day agrees that things will not be stable today.
HMMMMPS.

Please pray i'll make it to interchange by 7. =(

My goodness, this is my 200th post!
GASP.

So anyway, i said i didnt record right? Well apparently, someone did. And i koped it.
See the awesomeness! Must watch at least 3 times to get everything. LOL.
Click on the youtube icon and watch on youtube. It'll be much better.




I'm learning law and ethics with regards to healthcare tomorrow.
Hope its not a bummmmmmmer!
Bye.

Ok ok i do proper update.
I'm so tired. I jogged twice today. Crazy, i know. But i feel good surprisingly.
I'm going to sleep like a swine tonight.

So anyway!
Umm oh yeah, the RAG DAY!

I know la! I said i'll take a lot of pictures, but sorry, there ain't much.
BECAUSE!
I came late with pearlyn because cannot resist sleeping after subuh. So when we reached, it was no surprise that the whole stadium was filled until like overflowed..
And we had to squeeze like nobody's business.
And i managed to squeeze myself right in front of the stage! I mean at the ....how to say ah....right on the top bench of the important people la. But of course, depriving myself of clean air and oxygen due to the number of people there.
So how to take pictures i ask you??!!
Being able to SEE the performance good already le!

Dont get me started on the smell of sweat there. Aku tak mati dah miracle dah.
I love the floatsssssss! And the performances!







For some bengap reason, when med rag was performing, i didnt record it. I was so engrossed watching the dance.
It was great! No wonder they won best performance and float. YEAYY MED!
And of course, being stuck amongst the busuk sweaty people, i cant go out onto the cheering box with the rest to umm...cheer.
I even spotted yuko for the raffles hall dance.

Watching the performances right, it was just awesome. The feeling. Macam nak join!
Some way or another, to be a part of rag, the float, the whatever. Hahahaha.
But i know la, not possible.
With the restrictions heaped upon me, its just something i can only think of.

But nevermind la, being able to be part of the nus spirit also boleh la!

Today AH KE (an affectionate name his mum calls him lol)  had his bdae lunch party.
I paiseh man!
I kept thinking today is his bdae so i kept saying loudly Happy birthday! at his house only to find out from amanda that its not.

=.=''

I was the only (technically) malay there, a little awkward so when we all entered, i promptly exclaimed,
"Wo ke yi jiang hua yu!" at his super tall mum.
And so she began to speak to me in chinese all the way.
Of course there were times i dont understand at all la.
Smile smile only and nod nod, then ask xinyi what she said. (LOL)
HAHAHAHA.
But there were times she said things like "your skin is nice" in chinese, which i understand. So i'll say "XIEXIE!"

LOL.
Sungguh tak malu.

And the most embarassing thing, (i have a feeling) i talk a LITTLE loud with the girls and ah ke, and the mum was walking by, stopped in front of me, and said (in chinese) Wah, when you speak, you express a lot of emotions hor! and smiled/ laughed.

PAISEHHHHHHHH!
Xinyi couldnt stop laughing.
-.-

Khairina is right. I can be a natural comedian.



Dont you think the po po-s and the ye ye-s and nenek-s and datuk-s will adore me?
HAHAHA.